When I called off my engagement publicly a little over a year ago it just took a little nudge from a wonderful sister at church to see that I wasn't sure. She shared with me the emotional abusive she had suffered in her marriage. She spoke to me candidly about how the money was great, but how her husband was so abusive. She told me, 'Katherine, I know you are looking at your age and you wanna be married, but wait if you are not sure.' Everything that she stated I had been experiencing and more. He and I had both attended a meeting together and the prophetess of the house told me what this man (my fiancé) was doing to me was witchcraft. She didn't stutter or hesitate! He had become abusively angry that night because God had confirmed his abuse. Randomly, I would get prophecies that there was someone connected to me that would harm me. One prophecy was: "There is a devil with a pitchfork connected to you, and God will show you who it is." Also another, was clear as a bell,' He said, the relationship that you just ended; God said it was a mistake...." I knew the many signs of an abusive partner, but I just stayed in hopes that my words of encouragement and many prayers would help, but they didn't. It only got worse. Especially, when I would seek the Lord through consecration and fasting. He would throw things when he was angry, send me grewsome bloody pictures, arguments and tantrums of control would be done like clock work to control the relationship. He would speak harshly to me at times, but then he would later layer on thick, the I love yous and abundance of monetary gifts. It's almost like he got a kick out of the make up break up phase. It's like it gave him a rush; all while crushing my spirit. Through our courtship of 2 1/2 years I found out things about his true character that he kept hide from me. One, he had been released from the military for multiple personality disorders. Two, that he'd attempted the act of suicide before. Once he stated that he loved me so much that if he did take my life for some reason, then at least he still could still repent and go to heaven. I encouraged him to go to counseling, real professional counseling. So he did; the first counselor told him within 30 minutes that he wasn't marriage material. (She had been married 35 yrs.) So he got mad as usual when he didn't like something, so he left and went to another therapist. Within a few sessions after she had seen the bloody photo that he had sent me, she told him, " oh my God, this is worse than I thought it was." They put him on medications but he refused to take them. He never went back to her again either. Later, I found out a plethora of things that he wouldn't share with me. These are only a few: he had been deep into porn still, masturbation still, anal sex and orgies. He asked me if I'd be interested in these practices once married. Wow, of course this was a great conflict of interest since I love God with all my heart soul and mind; and I want a pure and wholesome lifestyle.
HEAVEN BOUND; OUR FINAL DESTINATION.
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